I’m Not Just A Shy Introvert, I Have Social Anxiety

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I’m not just shy, I have social anxiety.

I’m not an introvert, I have social anxiety.

If you know me you think of me as “introverted”, “shy”, “quiet”. It’s just my personality, right? And you like me anyway. The truth is, I live with a constant inner struggle. I’m not just naturally shy and quiet. It’s a fricking battle inside me. Continue reading “I’m Not Just A Shy Introvert, I Have Social Anxiety”

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We Moved! (Again) Guess To Where?

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The last couple of weeks were hectic because we were preparing for a cross-states move and actually moving. We packed and moved everything by ourselves, carried heavy boxes up and down stairs a million times, drove for 3 days straight (pretty much), and moved into a completely new environment. I’m still recovering.

Vincent (Van Gato), our cat, came along. But we’re still in transition. We still have to find a place to get settled down.  Continue reading “We Moved! (Again) Guess To Where?”

I Suck At Goodbyes… Like, REALLY Suck At Them

I was thinking this morning while I was eating my breakfast at the dining table by myself. A scrambled egg with salsa verde, avocado, one tortilla, and a side of a gluten-free frozen waffle (actually toasted not frozen) half with butter and half with almond butter and honey. That’s how weird I am but that is not the topic of this post.

I was thinking about goodbyes. I was thinking about the fact that we’re moving again… darn, I was planning on making a post for breaking the news, but now I’ve said it. But I won’t tell you the details yet; I will write a post about it later, in a week or two when we’ve settled down. Continue reading “I Suck At Goodbyes… Like, REALLY Suck At Them”

Current Observations #2

Almost 2 years ago I blogged about my current life observations in list form, inspired by others bloggers who did the same. I thought I’d give it a go again. Continue reading “Current Observations #2”

How Do You Follow Your Heart When You Can’t?

Another day gone by and I wake up with my heart aching. I thought it was getting better but it’s not. I’m here, yet my heart is somewhere else. And it’s not as easy as just following it. I can’t leave and I can’t really explain why in sensical terms, especially to those who are people of science and not of God. I can be quite illogical.  Continue reading “How Do You Follow Your Heart When You Can’t?”

I Don’t Understand How People Think Right Now

Wtf is this shit. I do something terrible, wrong, selfish thing and everyone from all angles (except for one and myself) keeps telling me I did nothing wrong, that it was God’s plan, to not feel guilty… Wtf.

I’m baffled, confused. Why? How? I don’t want praise, I don’t want pity, I want people to say “yeah you fucked up”, “people make mistakes”, “when did you become so selfish?” (this is one I wonder every day now). Something! I don’t know. Continue reading “I Don’t Understand How People Think Right Now”

Life Update & Weekly Small Pleasures #77

 

Crazy week. As you may know, we moved 8000 miles from Oregon to Utah very spontaneously.  For 10 nights we were at an airbnb in Salt Lake City looking for a new home to rent. Finally on the 9th night we found an apartment in Logan, got approved and moved in the next day! Super quick. We moved in on Wednesday and it was hard. It’s an apartment on the third floor (we’re kinda done with upstairs neighbors) and we moved everything between the two of us. Continue reading “Life Update & Weekly Small Pleasures #77”